Mirror, mirror on the wall…..
What do you see when you look in the mirror? Sometimes it depends on the day for me. If I’m having a good day, then I like what I see in the mirror. If I’m having a bad day, well then, not so much. I can be really hard on myself when I look in the mirror. I can find every single flaw in a matter of seconds and then I look at myself and point them all out. And even though I have lost 75 pounds, 15 inches and 5 sizes I look in the mirror and still see the same fat person I saw 2 years ago. Sometimes I catch a glimpse of myself in a reflection on a door or window and think, “Whoa! That’s me? I look so good!” and it surprises me. Why does it surprise me? I have worked hard to get where I am, why do I keep putting myself down. I am my own harshest critic and a lot of the time I don’t think I measure up to the standards I place on myself. Why are we so hard on ourselves? Or am I the only one who struggles with this? It’s funny, when I see myself in dreams, I’m always thin; I wonder why that is? It’s always been that way. One day my dream will come true and I have to keep reminding myself that in a year or in 6 months I’m going to be so glad I kept pushing myself. But I also have to figure out how to be happy with who and what I look like today because I don’t want to live my life waiting for that moment a year from now. I have to figure out how to look in the mirror now and like what I see. And like what I see all the time and not just on the good day. Easier said than done, I know. Any thoughts? What do you see when you look in the mirror?
